Friday, October 12, 2007 2:49 AM
i never felt love like this before.so aun. i shared a lot kay rika. and the 'mysterious guy' daw na nasa blog entries ko e nasabi ko sakania. sa sobrang pilit nia nasabi ko. pero alam mo ang galing ni rika manghula! haha. tamo nahulaan nia un! galing galing. applause. hihi. aun, and so ang dami kong nasabi and meron sa mga nasabi ko mejo hindi dapat. hihi. pero its ok. at least alam nia na. hihi. kaya nga simula ngaun naicp ko na wala ng poi entries. wala ng tungkol kay poi. ok ok.
As i start my day fresh and new i get ready to face everything but you, i think you forgot the promise because that promise i can not find you always promised you wouldn't leave me and the memories all behind sometimes i dream that none of this happened and we stayed together as two but when my alarm clock ring and i wake up i notice this isn't true it seem like it was just yesterday you said you will never leave me or lie but honestly i want to forget those thoughts and i really seem to try but theirs always something that reminds me of you and everything we shared like your wrongs, the songs, and how all the time you told me you cared and now i understand it's the past and i have to let it be but how can i let it go when my heart hasn't even set you free i would feel so much better if you could feel my pain not to hurt you but to let you see how it's been driving me insane i tell my mind it's done and i tell my heart the same but the strong feeling of hurt comes every time i hear your name although my dreams say i want to be with you i don't i just want to let the hurt go if I'm still in pain just a little bit of pain how do love expect me to grow it's very,very small pain but it's still affecting mewe walk by each other everyday acting as if we don't see but when i walk by you a slide show of all the memories come down sometimes i just start laughing or crack a little smile but then i look beside you, you make it clear there never is a blur while I'm walking by with no one your walking by with her, i know how much you care for her because you let it show you look at her the way you used to look at me and i hope she know but i know I'm over you and true love i will again find all i need is a little patience because a broken heart takes time.
sa qoute ni rika na ito. mejo OUCH. pero its ok. pero there are phrases dian na sobrang patama sakin. hihi. pero as i said 'im in the process of forgetting and searching.' no healing kc hindi naman ako broken hearted e. and ngaun ko lang napagisip isip na hindi ko naman cia talagang minahal e. maybe nandun ung care ko for him pero hindi ko talaga cia love. naging crush ko cia for a little while and un sa mga sunod sunod na araw parang naaadmire lang ako sakania. ung ganun lang. may isang araw na hindi nawala sa isip ko na 'cguro ito na ung true love na hinahanap ko' haha. pero hindi. no, never. walang love na nangyari. kahit sakin o sakania man. meron man konti lang. pero bakit ganun. nasasaktan ako. pero kapag nakikita kong magkasama cla happy naman ako for them. hindi ko na ma-explain ung nararamdaman ko. sampalin nio na ako! gaaadd. ng magcng na ako sa katotohanan. toink. whatever.
im trying to be nice.
im trying to be kind.
im trying to be patient.
im trying so hard but you didn't notice anything at all.
you'll always be in my heart forever. :D
